Saturday, October 25, 2014


I didn't intend to write about something like this today. But as I walked back from work at Plum Market today, a heart-sick feeling began to swell inside, and it only seems right to let words flow from that sense of longing.

Longing for what? Nothing specific today. I don't long to be somewhere else, or do anything in particular.

You could call it Sehnsucht, I suppose.

In one of the books I read for a class earlier this semester, this word often used by C.S. Lewis is described like this..."when we have [Sehnsucht], we are seeking union with something from which we are separated... we look at a green valley and want to crawl under its covers. We think of a happy home and want to dwell int its center. We keep wanting to 'get back' or 'get in'" (Cornelius Plantinga).

Plantinga goes on to say, "what's remarkable is that these longings are unfulfillable". Nothing on this earth will finally satisfy us. Augustine pondered this longing as well and said that what humans want is God. Jesus prays "that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me" (John 17:21). Jesus too knows that all that we want is to be "in God". We want what lies behind all the good things in life; we want to be in Him.

Wonderful things like the glow of warm sun that wakes you up in the morning, or its setting in the evening "point us beyond the things of earth to the ultimate reality of God" (Plantinga). Beauty stirs up this longing for what's "beyond".

This longing is fulfilled in the Lord. Not completely though yet, because Christ has not returned to redeem creation, though one day we will be completely united with Him.

So why does this longing not go away when we trust Christ? Just because we know who the object of our longing is now doesn't mean that longing disappears. If anything, it intensifies.

Of course I want to be with Him and to know Him even more. This longing that He gives us is meant to produce in us hope. Through studying Scripture more and more, we will find that what the Lord has in store for those who have believed in Him is beyond our understanding. And so, we live in His love and mercy and goodness each day here, and continue to hope for the age to come when all will be complete and whole.

Also, I feel like I should add a bit of what reality looks like these days: always homework, projects, 2 jobs, lots of things to remember, balancing life, sweet times with friends, cold days and then warm days, and getting ready to sign up for classes next week. 

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

48 Hours of Impact

My alarm went off at 4:20 this morning. Although it shocked me a bit and my first reaction was not to just jump out of bed, I knew why I was waking up so early and it was worth it.

Students at Moody get to be a part of a Moody Radio event called 48 Hours of Impact. For 48 hours, Moody Radio is helping to launch ministry leaders (= us students) during this live, on-air event. They asked students to volunteer for time slots to answer phones to receive donations towards our tuition. What a privilege to get to talk with people who are so generous.

Moody is a tuition paid school thanks to donations from people like the ones we talked with this morning. I honestly don't know if I would be able to go to a school like this if it weren't tuition paid, and I know that's true of a lot of people. Moody's goal in having our tuition paid is for us to graduate without any debt, so we can go straight into ministry.

THANK YOU to anyone who gives towards our tuition. If you'd like to donate in these next 48 hours, you can either call 1-800-600-9624 today or tomorrow (and talk to a Moody student or Moody grad!) or go HERE to give online.

It was so fun being a part of this today and it just reminds me of what a privilege it is to go to Moody and get to study God's Word every day.

I never thought I'd be answering phones at a call center. My mom will testify to the fact that usually I'm quite squeamish about talking on the phone with people I don't know. But today was sweet. Yes, my hands were cold because I was nervous, but I loved getting to be a part of this and get to hear the voices of people who directly support us students here at Moody. So thankful.

Monday, October 20, 2014

Getaway to Goshen

I had an absolutely fantastic weekend away at a fall retreat in Goshen, IN. In a couple words: farm, fires, fellowship. And also strengthening friendships, lots of animals, and a Saturday that stretched on forever, in the most wonderful of ways. We got to have a morning church service around the campfire on Sunday before driving back to the city. The weekend could not have been better.

We stayed at the house of one of the guys on our brother floor. His family was so fun to get to hang out with too, and I am thankful they opened up their house to all of us!


This group is fantastic.

A huge thank-you to the Miller family for hosting us. They were a joy to get to know, and the most generous hosts to offer their home to a bunch of college students as a place to rest. 

Sunday, October 19, 2014


Like I said the other day, I got to take Kate's senior photos this past week, and the weather, location, and subjects could not have been more perfect. It's hard to choose favorites, but here are some of them! Kate and her mom are the most joy-filled, fun-to-be-with people and I loved an excuse to spend the afternoon with them.

Both Kate and her mom are dancers. It's something they cherish and love!

Friday, October 17, 2014

Lincoln Park Beauty

Amidst Missions Conference with all its sessions, seminars and interactions with wonderful people, I got to take Kate's (college) senior photos today! Although I'm still working on them, here's just a glimpse. Her mom was in the city as well, so the timing could not have been more perfect for these photos. We had such a wonderful afternoon together!

I also got to see a new place in the city that I've been wanting to go to for quite some time. Honestly, I never realized how close it was to campus. This place is a dream and made me giddy today. What a little sanctuary, yet overlooking the city.

Oh the places to discover in Chicago. It's neverending.